As I allow the distance to grow - for whatever reasons - between myself and some of the people I once considered close, I find myself alternating between self-sufficient apathy and dreadful feelings of loss and loneliness.
But let's not get lost in self-pity...
I'd like to say that the girl I'm seeing thing is going quite well. Is it? I really don't know. Anyway from talking to her, I've realised that I'm far more calculating than I ever gave myself credit for. I even tell her this. Maybe CM's right, and by gradually exposing your full set of attributes early on, you're giving someone half a chance.
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Monday, May 01, 2006
Creeping to a Peak
Where were we?
I feel I ought to mention that things are really going pretty well at the moment. Several factors involved:
CM is in London
He's in the next room, asleep. I'll save the full note of appreciation for his ears only, but suffice to say I really enjoy his company and miss him when he's not here.
I've booked holidays
A long weekend in Sweden at the beginning of June, a long weekend in northern Italy in August and an extended trip around the world (mostly Asia) for two and a half months from mid-November to the beginning of February. Hooray - I miss out most of the British winter!
I have a love interest
A girl I met at a party. More to follow perhaps...
All of this, plus I'm exercising regularly, work's going quite well, family seems to have stabilised a little (condition still pretty critical though), I've picked up my guitar again, I'm eating/ sleeping well (though not at the same time), and I generally feel quite positive. Could it get any better?
I feel I ought to mention that things are really going pretty well at the moment. Several factors involved:
CM is in London
He's in the next room, asleep. I'll save the full note of appreciation for his ears only, but suffice to say I really enjoy his company and miss him when he's not here.
I've booked holidays
A long weekend in Sweden at the beginning of June, a long weekend in northern Italy in August and an extended trip around the world (mostly Asia) for two and a half months from mid-November to the beginning of February. Hooray - I miss out most of the British winter!
I have a love interest
A girl I met at a party. More to follow perhaps...
All of this, plus I'm exercising regularly, work's going quite well, family seems to have stabilised a little (condition still pretty critical though), I've picked up my guitar again, I'm eating/ sleeping well (though not at the same time), and I generally feel quite positive. Could it get any better?